Here's the thing....I like to be in control! I like everything to be planned, I like to know how things are going to happened, who's going to do what, when things are going to get done.... I feel safe when I have a plan. We all know that's not always possible, things happen, life happens... not everything can be meticulously planned out and if I expect that in life it will cause me a lot of undue stress and anxiety.
"He who trusts in himself is a fool, but he who walks in wisdom is kept safe"
I now realize that I need to surrender worries, stresses, fears, etc. I need to give up control and surrender to Him! As much as I realize the importance of surrender, and I remind myself multiple times a day to surrender to Him, I've gotta be honest, it's not easy! This surrendering thing, trusting Him and having to relay on faith is 'new' to me. Having lived all my life up to this point thinking that I needed to control everything and I was responsible for my destiny, it's difficult to flick the switch and change, but I strive to surrender my life to Him daily... well actually multiple times a day I find myself saying "just surrender it to Him, I can't control this". It is so freeing knowing that He has a plan for me.